I was pumped up and ready to go after receiving this, and thought of it as a confirmation of what Yahveh (the G-d of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob) wanted me to do. However, I confess it hasn’t been so easy -- and easier said than done.
Society’s Pressure to Mate and Procreate Society
Society will tell you that you have to get married and have children. Your parents will pressure you into a life that may not be the one that Yahveh (G-d) wants for you. Men will try to get you to give up your virginity before you’re ready or before you’re ready for marriage.
This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t respect your parents, and you don’t necessarily have to cut off your family. It also may not mean that you have to be a spinster (always single, no kids) for your entire life. However, it does mean that you need to ask G-d what He wants for your life instead of what your parents, friends, co-workers and other people want for you.
What G-d wants you to do should take precedence over what someone else wants you to do. I believed at one time that I was meant to go from house to house like the apostles did – or city to city. I was to tell as many people about the Gospel of the Messiah (the Christ, otherwise known as Jesus) as much as possible.
In doing so, I was meant to tell people the Good news then “shake the dust off my feet” of the people who didn’t want to hear it. (See Matthew 10:14) However, I did instead what I swore I would never do. I let men and relationships become my god rather than the G-d of the Universe – Yahveh, Elohim.
For part of this time, I did attempt to still do the work Yah called me to do. However, I slowly let romantic relationships become my priority rather than G-d. Not only that, but I also let my fixation on wanting money, success and fame consume me.
In addition, I became discouraged and allowed the “pride of life” and all its lusts become more important than serving G-d. I became lonely, too. Then, I decided to waste my time partying when I could have instead went out into the world and preach the Gospel like G-d told me to do.
Repercussions of my Disobedience
Two decades after being told to “take up my cross and follow” Yahshua (Jesus), I feel tied down to other commitments and feel like I have little time left in the day to do what Yahveh (God) wants me to do. Instead of going out and preaching the Gospel of Christ, I’m instead stuck home living a life I never intended to live.
It’s not all bad, though. The person I’m in a relationship with now encourages me to play my music. However, I have to be honest. If I hadn’t agreed to marry him and hadn’t backslidden for more than a decade, I’d still be off doing the things G-d called me to do when I was younger – go out into the world and preach the Gospel.
As a result of my disobedience to G-d, I see America and the rest of the world going to hell in a hand basket. No, I’m not responsible for the souls of people that do not accept Christ as their savior. However, I’m at least partly responsible for why the world things are now okay that never used to be acceptable (being with someone of the same sex, living with a man and not being married, etc.).
I Urge Young Women not to Waste Time with Foolishness
Not everyone has the same calling. Some people are meant to stay behind and stay home while others are not. Also, if G-d has already brought you a decent man in your life that wants to marry you and he loves G-d, then many blessings be upon you!
No matter what age you are, this kind of thing should not be taken for granted because some people never have that. If you’re still single don’t feel bad…there’s a reason for it: I wasted at least 10 years of my single life not doing what G-d asked of me, and I’m still struggling.
If I had to do it all over again, I would’ve never allowed the worldly messages of romantic love, sex and money to overpower me. Instead, I would’ve allowed G-d (Yahveh) to work through me and see many more miracles of people being healed, saved and delivered.
You can have all that instead of the miserable life I had in the past decade if you just listen to G-d now. Also, don’t feel bad about being single. Maybe you have issues, but still…you need to make the most of the time G-d has given you now.
Don’t worry about what society thinks of you!
“25And there went great multitudes with him: and he turned, and said unto them, 26If anyman come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. 27And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.
28For which of you, intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he have sufficient to finish it? 29Lest haply, after he hath laid the foundation, and is not able to finish it, all that behold it begin to mock him, 30Saying, This man began to build, and was not able to finish.
31Or what king, going to make war against another king, sitteth not down first, and consulteth whether he be able with ten thousand to meet him that cometh against him with twenty thousand? 32Or else, while the other is yet a great way off, he sendeth an ambassage, and desireth conditions of peace. 33So likewise, whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple.”
"5These twelve Jesus sent forth, and commanded them, saying, Go not into the way of the Gentiles, and into any city of the Samaritans enter ye not: 6But go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel. 7And as ye go, preach, saying, The kingdom of heaven is at hand. 8Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give. 9Provide neither gold, nor silver, nor brass in your purses,10Nor scrip for your journey, neither two coats, neither shoes, nor yet staves: for the workman is worthy of his meat. 11And into whatsoever city or town ye shall enter, inquire who in it is worthy; and there abide till ye go thence. 12And when ye come into an house, salute it. 13And if the house be worthy, let your peace come upon it: but if it be not worthy, let your peace return to you. 14And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear your words, when ye depart out of that house or city, shake off the dust of your feet.15Verily I say unto you, It shall be more tolerable for the land of Sodom and Gomorrha in the day of judgment, than for that city.: